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the six ‘dementions’ are not my friends they are only the means to the ends, reflections and then to oppose death, are these not my checkmates?… the Who, the What, the Where, the When, the Why, and the How….working together as the longitude/ latitude of exacting spiritual and material endeavors… brilliantly fitting together with other gnostic explorations and diagrams, but that is yet another “distraction” pulling me from either direction left, with a circular habit intense with discretion as i go back over notes and ideas for my stories and remake some of the woven patterns there… i should apply my new learning to the tales, and toe the line as the cliche goes, to make reality my dreams from infinity… i have built many artistic patterns now, whether they be written works or paint-by-numbers on splashes of gouache, or the musical canvases that intrigue and beguile me to no end without reasons through the logic and confusion… the attractive urge to spend the wishes i do have at my disposal, managing their moderation one has to step into the fear minus any guilt that might betray the real focus, and sometimes the goals may seem too far stretched by this suspension of disbelief….burning the bridge dogmatique… the boost to self-esteem is unimaginable from below, the ivory tower has but one key for each person attempting their best at storming the walls, but no metaphysical grappling hooks have we… you have to blow the fucker up, and catapult yourself beyond the crude competitive pace that everyone has set for themselves, to be a champion you cannot wait….most of those cliches feel like potent examples of micro advertising for reverse psychology from which the masses will feed… the mind is one of the few tools we all have within that allows us to understand and digest all those creative fluctuations that occur beyond the veil of a perceived reality, the body is the interactive being into which a future can be made a functional probability, and the soul fits somewhere in-between and links all three together as the emotional awareness or glue which keeps them entwined… many people wish they could reset their lives somehow, and these deep-seated regrets end up hurting a less-introspective person, triangulating the instances where these problems first become apparent is the beginning step… i try not to rest my wishes on things that there is no hope for attaining, and anyone can attain what they desire if they just allow themselves to act without inhibition, there are too many excuses and justifications wasting the energy to create a synthesis of forces instead of the polarity presented in an average black/ white model of reality….where there is no grey area and is the false assumption to make… there is a lag of time yet still between you and me, but there is still ways of getting through, ways of channeling in on your transistor radio head to use the fillings in your teeth to find some way in… to show you that deep inside the black or white issues is the grey breath of fresh foggy air that is the only way to survive the tension with self intact, you have to make the choices even if you are unaware, but some thoughtful part of you will find the truth even if it scares you… i got used to scaring myself, or is that even true?…

Thanks, khet.